Lost? I don't know whom I can talk all this things to. I don't know who I can trust becasue I don't even trust myself. There are stuffs I should really think before I do. I am starting to even hate myself too. Felt super guilty. Knowing nothing is really better than knowing too much things. I knew that something would happen so why wouldn't I prevent it from happening. I really hate myself for doing all these stupid stuffs. Lastly, don't even bother asking me what happen. Sometimes, I wish that my feelings can be kill so that I will not feel anything.